The Eye of the Princess

Princess' eye is doing fantastic after the eye surgery , the doctor says everything looks better than she expected. Her eye sight is slowly returning as she had lost it again after the surgery. the glaucoma looks to be gone and all is healing well. Praises be to our Father in Heaven, the Healer and the doctors he brought into our life.

Update on Princess' eye.

Okay, here is the latest.

On Monday we meet with a Dr. Ruth from Children's eye surgery in Arvada 10am We are meeting at Children's Hospital. She is going to do an extensive exam. She is looking for signs that Lauren's eye "shifted" or moved when she was in the accident.

We have already had one DR. look for this exact thing and he said it did not move. It will be good to have a second opinion.

Two choices are left. If the eye did move this is what is blocking the drainage and this is why the pressure is so high. In this case Lauren must have surgery on Tuesday. It will be a major surgery with a 50% success rate and a 50% chance that she will have to have the surgery again. They put a penny size tube in her eye. there is also a chance that this could allow too much drainage.

If It looks like the eye did not move then the DR wants to do a surgery on Wed that will involve a small incision in Lauren's eye with a small stitch.

Last night I received a call from Porter Hospital for intake for Tuesday's surgery. I am hoping this is the Dr.'s was just covering all her bases for the worst case scenario since we haven't met with her yet and she hasn't done the full exam yet.

God's will be done. Thank you all for your continued prayers. We love you all and covet your prayers and encouragement.


Michelle, Carl and Lauren Lynch

36 years old

On Sunday we went to the Miniature Museum with our dear Svaldi friends. Nothing says you are old like seeing the toys you remember playing with when you were a child displayed behind a glass.

On the 29 of January I will be 36 years old.

In prior years by this time I would always have my birthday plans made for some fun and exciting, out of the ordinary celebration. I love my birthday.

This year it is now the 6th and I have not thought of one thing to do. I guess with planning my Oldest Daughters wedding Ceremony for June 12, and her baby shower for March. With becoming a grandma and a mother in law in one year this has placed my birthday celebration on the back burners.

Maybe I have grown up. YEA RIGHT.

I know when the pains and bitter sweetness of this last year have finally loosen their grasp I will get back to my childish and fun loving self.

I am still sore from the toll this year has taken on my heart but even more so I am in awe of the healing the Great and Awesome God has done there.

I planned on holding onto the cynicism and disappointment that I have been nursing since April. This has been a really rocky road. I lost my beloved step dad, my daughter Angel became Angela ( my name for when her personally is totally unrecognizable and she tries to destroy our family) Princess lost her eye sight in one eye in that terrible accident, then Beans decided to rock our world with violence, leading us to believe we had lost her too.

I constantly worried about getting an Ulcer.

Yet through this things God was able to grant miracle upon miracle… and I WAS ABLE TO SEE THEM. I just have to stand back speechless to the wonders and promises of our God.
LAUREN'S EYE SIGHT CAME BACK, ANGEL CAME BACK REPENTANT, I AM GOING TO BE A GRANDMA, AND I GAINED A SON-IN-LAW AND BEANS, BEANS WANTS TO BE IN OUR FAMILY.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

This year I will be 36 years old. I have the greatest friends. A family that has pulled together in times of tragedy and sorrow and a GOD who can completely restore a broken, battered and bitter heart.

I Must be a Princess, I must be deeply loved.

closing Ala Carte

CAT

I have no experience with cats, so I really can't be a judge if ours is weird or not. In the mist of a deep, heart to heart with my hubby, with tears and frustration spilling over, our cat decided that this is the time to go berserk. I think he thinks he is superman as the zips around the house, zooming up the funiture and curtians, leaping over knick nacks on the end tables. He had us laughing so hard. He is just what we need during this time.

Psalm 13

How long, O Lord? will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and everyday have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, O lord my God. Restore the sparkle to my eyes. My enemy will say "I have overcome him and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love; My heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord for he has been good to me. Psalm 13

I can't believe how often my mind think "it just isn't fair that Jim died."
As if Life and death has some sense of justice. As if God doesn't know what He is doing. AS if He is not in control. Things come up during the day and I think about Jim and again I think, it just isn't fair, he shouldn't have died.

Then we lose my oldest daughter, she is pregnant with my grand-daughter (she found out yesterday) living with a guy she moved in with 1 week after meeting him. She is happy with her life as it is.

Now, Beloved, Her boyfriend refuses to come around here because of shame? embarrassment?, fear? I am not sure. So Beloved takes him to her biological mother's house to hang out all day there. He will go there into a house of "thieves" comfortable around those who rejoice in sin and lies and encourage others to join them.
V. 2 How long will my enemy triumph over me? v 4 my enemy will say, "I have overcome him and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
And "Falling" I am.

Offered Communion yesterday at church, My heart festering with bitterness and disappointment, hardening against my loving God, broken with my unworthiness. My tears soaking my shirt as I stared at the communion element in my hands.

"Take communion with Faith" my sister in Christ leaned over to whispered to me.
So simple,
It is not what I do or don't do, It is not who I am or how I feel at the moment.

It is what HE DID, WHO HE IS, HOW HE FEELS ABOUT ME. It is about the sacrifice He was willing to pay for ME. FAITH


V"6 I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.

Stand Still

This is what I wanted, this is what my heart yearned for, I had only to take little steps of obedience and God did the rest.
So why am I so anxious, fearful, tearful? Why am I pacing around like a caged animal one minute than wanting to crawl in bed and sleep for hours the next?
Why do I have so many confusing emotions and none of them the “right ones”

I should be over joy-ed with gratitude to God for giving me my hearts desire.
I will have a restored relationship with my daughter, my angel, I will get to hold my grand baby and pray over her. God has taken the deep longings of my heart and fulfilled them.
Why am I not screaming His Praises from the rafters. He is defiantly worthy of them? What is wrong with me? My heart is terrified but where my head says, “it is okay, this is in God’s hands.” Then my head jumps right on board with my heart. OH Brother.

I know I should be praising and thankful, will God think I am not grateful, will He disown me?

Who should I call, Whom should I reach out to , who will tell me the right way to handle this or the right way to feel, or the right way to be?

“Stand still, Stand still, Stand still.” My head screams out.
I stand still and that still small voice finishes for me, “ AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD.’ Praise be my Lord. He is God no matter my circumstances . He loves me and fills the longing of my heart no matter how I act. He knows me He know I will get there. I need not fear because HE IS GOD. He will lead me step by step, He will guide me and heal me and hold me and love me through all my emotions.

Thanks be to God.

Got to go, must praise.

I can praise Him for who He is.