36 years old

On Sunday we went to the Miniature Museum with our dear Svaldi friends. Nothing says you are old like seeing the toys you remember playing with when you were a child displayed behind a glass.

On the 29 of January I will be 36 years old.

In prior years by this time I would always have my birthday plans made for some fun and exciting, out of the ordinary celebration. I love my birthday.

This year it is now the 6th and I have not thought of one thing to do. I guess with planning my Oldest Daughters wedding Ceremony for June 12, and her baby shower for March. With becoming a grandma and a mother in law in one year this has placed my birthday celebration on the back burners.

Maybe I have grown up. YEA RIGHT.

I know when the pains and bitter sweetness of this last year have finally loosen their grasp I will get back to my childish and fun loving self.

I am still sore from the toll this year has taken on my heart but even more so I am in awe of the healing the Great and Awesome God has done there.

I planned on holding onto the cynicism and disappointment that I have been nursing since April. This has been a really rocky road. I lost my beloved step dad, my daughter Angel became Angela ( my name for when her personally is totally unrecognizable and she tries to destroy our family) Princess lost her eye sight in one eye in that terrible accident, then Beans decided to rock our world with violence, leading us to believe we had lost her too.

I constantly worried about getting an Ulcer.

Yet through this things God was able to grant miracle upon miracle… and I WAS ABLE TO SEE THEM. I just have to stand back speechless to the wonders and promises of our God.
LAUREN'S EYE SIGHT CAME BACK, ANGEL CAME BACK REPENTANT, I AM GOING TO BE A GRANDMA, AND I GAINED A SON-IN-LAW AND BEANS, BEANS WANTS TO BE IN OUR FAMILY.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

This year I will be 36 years old. I have the greatest friends. A family that has pulled together in times of tragedy and sorrow and a GOD who can completely restore a broken, battered and bitter heart.

I Must be a Princess, I must be deeply loved.